To anyone that knows me they must think I am the most enthusiastic gym monkey and healthiest freak around when actually to myself I am quite the opposite. It’s so easy to beat yourself up about what you eat and how you look especially with so much pressure on both men and women these days. From a young age I’ve been involved with sport, i guess thats the one thing i feel confident doing. Im not the thickest kid on the block but i’m no academic, i never was gifted in music although i tried 8 instruments, i wasn’t into the arts the stage just isn’t for me but i am luckily quite practically talented when it comes to sport.
I have played Hockey, Tennis, Football, Rugby, Netball, Swimming, Athletics, Horse Riding, Dance, Rounders, Cross-country all at a very high level but unfortunately this has led me to have terrible joints at my young age of 20. I’m now a self confessed gym bunny. Many people would say, what are you complaining about I would love to be sporty; and its true i am very lucky to have been part of some amazing sports teams and now own a hefty collection of medals and trophies; and its this which adds the pressure.
Everyone knows me as the “sporty” one who loves rabbit food and is just health crazy. IF ONLY THEY KNEW. I am probably one of the largest out of my friends, which doesn’t seem fair as i cane the gym 5-7 times a week; push my body to the absolute extremes, wake up at 6:30am on holiday to do hill sprints in 20 degree heat all to get a “good” body. There they are eating sandwiches and pasta whilst lay in bed and they are the size of a match stick. You could blame it on genes or they are simply blessed with a metabolism of a race horse. The truth is is i’m guilty of the secret eat. When i come in late from a friends and everyone is in bed i’ll sit in the kitchen and demolish everything I can until i feel sick (as long as its before midnight) and keep telling myself: i’ll start tomorrow.
Honestly, it’s not rocket science, i’m sure there are hundreds of people out there like me; love exercise, eat healthy 90% of the time, still hate themselves, eat secretly, feel guilty and repeat. You can read magazines and all the stories in the media but there really is no realistic quick fix. 3 meals a day, lots of water, exercise blah blah blahhhh. Which i do, OF COURSE.
Next week i’m going to try an experiment. One week eating healthy-ish, working out, my normal routine. Then the week after i’m going to take a week off from the gym, and eat a very strict diet and see which one i lose more weight. I know its not all about the scales but it is hard to see when you are trying so hard and putting on weight but not really seeing a difference when really your naughty little muscle fibres are actually getting bigger and stronger. I am blessed to have gained a lot of knowledge about diet and nutrition through all my sports and i am very educated in it; which makes me think why am I not the person i want to be. If you ever feel like this just keep telling yourself:
No matter how many mistakes you make or how slow you progress, you are still way ahead of everyone who isn’t trying.
R “Thunder” x